So, here we are, at the end of another season of Grey’s. And it is very clear our girls are in a bad place, I still believe they are endgame and I’ll get into that at the end of my review, but for now, here we go: They aren’t in scenes together until the end so forgive the bouncing around. Overall episode note: the word “fine”, which is Grey’s speak for it’s all about to be everything but…. used so many times in this ep that I yelled at the TV. And the opening titles with the lightening and flashing between white and black…very cool. And again, this episode required me looking at it from a shipper’s and show fan view.
We see Callie first, when she happily tells April about pinning her ring inside her scrub top. While this comes in to play in a huge way later, for me here, it made my heart ache a little…. what happened isn’t even on Callie’s radar. Yes, she’s wondering where Arizona is but her being with Lauren isn’t a thought. And we cut to the on call room where Arizona is getting dressed, because yes, she did have sex with Lauren. Yup, I will admit I had hoped she wouldn’t go that far, but she did. And now she can’t wait to get away from Lauren. As for Lauren, I really, really don’t like her. She’s all calm and relaxed, and plain old doesn’t care that Arizona is married. Lauren offers to help in the NICU and Arizona tells her no, and gets out of the room quickly.
The NICU: Arizona arrives to an understaffed NICU and tells Alex, Jo and Stephanie about keeping the makers of the tiny humans happy. It’s a callback to S6 finale when she gave the same speech about the lockdown. Lauren shows up to help, and Arizona obviously doesn’t want her there. Alex lets her help..” keep the makers of the tiny humans happy, right?” I think he senses something is up but not sure exactly what. And the NICU is in trouble, there are no spare batteries for the ventilators. No generators, no batteries, things are about to get intense. And a side note: Alex’s everything’s fine smile: creepy.
Back to the front of the hospital and while Callie is telling a patient that she can’t discharge him and along comes a flying bus, actually a crashing one but you get the picture….. and notice, Callie is right at the front of the people running to it. They evacuate the passengers, except the one Hunt and Avery go back for.
Arizona and Alex in the supply closet. Arizona confesses about Lauren to Alex, and Alex tells her she’s not the most horrible person standing in that closet. Now, I took a few things from this scene: the first being that yes, Arizona has been struggling for a while. Why do I say that? Because having her stuff together Arizona would never not have spare batteries on hand. She’s been back at work, yes, but she hasn’t completely been herself there either. The second: I think that we will get more of the Arizona/Alex relationship in S10, but with them more as colleagues than teacher/student. Of course at this point, I realize that my ability to guess what the Grey’s writers are going to do is completely shot. They have no batteries and Alex asks what they are going to do…. Arizona has no idea. Again, a sign that while she is standing there, she isn’t all there.
Back in the NICU the batteries are starting to go as Derek arrives with the baby. Yeah, still don’t like Lauren, but again she is there as pre-crash Arizona… when she says “We can do this” reminded me of Arizona knowing Ruby needed surgery and doing it in an exam room in S6 finale. The one of the dads, Tim, notices the low battery light and announces it to the entire NICU. Panic of course sets in. Derek steps in and suggests the parents do the bagging. We are reminded again that Arizona isn’t quite herself, needing Derek to step in like that.
Callie is taking care of Jackson and has to get April to leave the area. Can we just take a moment and love how hardcore Callie is through this… Steady, calm and focused. Callie as an admin person, not so much. Callie in doctor mode: awesome. And while not seen a lot, it’s a telling contrast to Arizona. While Arizona constantly seems to be overwhelmed by the effects of the storm, Callie is indeed focused and zoned in.
And back in the NICU Lauren wants to talk; Arizona tells her she made a mistake. Lauren tells her if she changes her mind…. and Callie arrives. And the lights come on. We see Arizona’s ring on a pin… on the front of Lauren’s (Arizona’s actually, because they got mixed up) scrub top. Arizona knows she’s caught. And Callie’s face…. she says it all without saying a word. She’s about to be wrecked and she knows it.
And the scene that got all the hype and buzz: The space between them is much bigger than in that room. Callie of course wants to know why, and Arizona doesn’t know. And then it comes out….. Arizona is still angry about the leg. She finally cracks… “You weren’t on the freaking plane” ” you want the street cred, the badge of honor, the warrior wounds, stick out your leg, grab a bone saw and we’ll even the score” The pure emotion when Arizona yells “you didn’t lose anything, I did” and it hits Callie… “Apparently I lost you” and yes, hearts break everywhere. It is raw, and I think it’s the most honest Arizona has been since the scene in 9.4 when she yells at Callie for not answering her phone. This is the moment that it hit me that perhaps this was planned for the season. That we got to see progress, but ultimately if trauma isn’t completely dealt with it will come back and hit you when you least expect it. We, like Callie had been given a sense that things were getting better. And on the surface they were. Which is why this was like taking a punch… we didn’t see it coming. And once it arrived it rolled over us the way a sudden thunderstorm does. Hard, fast and without pity. We are left with a cliffhanger of sorts….. what will be next? What does Arizona say…. what happens when they walk out of that room? And we also don’t know what Lauren’s future is…..gotta love summer hiatus. No, really, my emotions need recovery time. JCap and Sara in this scene reminded us of why we are so invested in this couple. There is a great dynamic there, even when doing something so emotional there is chemistry. They bring out the best in each other’s performance. We love these characters, love them more together but never forget that the reason isn’t just the words that have been written, it is the two women that bring them to life for us.
So, not a lot about individual scenes but how I break it down by show view vs. shipper view.
As a fan of the show, I loved this finale. Bailey is back, Mer was hardcore talking Ross through what to do, Webber is the Jedi master with Yang and Cristina makes the tough call with Owen. Alex gets his girl! And yes, Calzona is going to get a more intense story. Although, trying to figure out how Shonda called this a season of romance? For MerDer, ok, yes, and maybe Alex but the rest? Can’t quite get that right in my head, ha-ha .
So, my Calzona view as a fan of the show. This is Shondaland. It’s a drama and has been pointed out before cheating in Shondaland isn’t what it is for us in real life. We were supposed to be shocked, supposed to ask “where did that come from” That is what a dramatic show should do. I want them to have an intense storyline. I agree with Shonda and JCap (from interviews I’ve seen and read) that you can’t put the same sex couple in a happy place all the time, it actually makes them less. I also don’t think that Shonda sits in a room with the writers and tries to figure out how to make the fandoms crazy. I don’t think they set out to anger the LGBT community with this storyline. If we want equality, than it has to be an inclusive one, where our fave couples get messed with the same as everyone else. I do think they have conversation about what they can do to keep things interesting and how extreme can they go. Grey’s has always gone big and loud when it comes to drama…. drownings, gunmen, plane crashes….. they don’t sit in a safe corner. If you look at it from that perspective, Calzona has had a fairly safe relationship ride. Compare: they had the kid fight, Africa, car accident and plane crash but the only other person ever involved in that was Mark. Not a lot other people getting into their relationship and business. Crowen: PTSD, Teddy, gunman, Owen’s one night stand, Cristina was involved with her boss at Mayo. MerDer: Addison, Finn, Rose and April had a little Derek crush (thank goodness they dropped that one!) So, in Shondaland our MFEOs have to go through some stuff to get there. That’s ok; it’s what we signed on for. Could this have been done without the cheating storyline? Yup, but let’s not forget that a dramatic TV show’s job is to get ratings and create buzz. This did that, it wasn’t Ellen going around doing shows on Thursday (with McBaby coming) it was JCap and Sara. So if there is one thing that Shonda knows how to do it is to create a buzz and excitement. I also think that Lauren being left as a “what’s next” is telling. She may be around, and I think we could learn some more. I personally think she is not a nice character; a decent person backs off at the “I’m married” She didn’t and I don’t think that there is going to be a way for me to ever like her.
As a Calzona shipper: could this have all been brought about without the cheating? Yup, it could. Did it bother me? Absolutely. But guess what? It was supposed to bother me, that’s the point. After everything they’ve gone through to have this happen? My stomach and heart hurt, which is also the point. I was left wondering where do we go from here? I don’t think that Arizona set out to hurt Callie, that this was revenge. I do think that she finally cracked and did lose control in those moments. I believe she now feels trapped, between who she wants to be and who she is right now. Again, not a choice I would make in my life or that many of you would, but we aren’t characters on a show. I realize that the fandom has done some splitting…. I keep hearing Team Callie, Team Arizona and that they are done. I myself have 2 teams: Team Calzona and Team Grey’s Anatomy. I don’t believe they are done. I do believe it’s going to be an amazing and emotional journey for them to get back to each other. I don’t condone cheating but step back for a moment….. Arizona is broken inside. She covered, she faked recovery and tried to power through without getting professional help(that we saw)…. if this kind of traumatic event happened to anyone of us or that we know would we have allowed them to not see someone? Not likely. So, yes, Arizona made a big mistake, but as Bailey has said, she did a horrible thing, it doesn’t make her a horrible person. And then there is this: while Arizona did a very bad thing, Callie isn’t totally in the clear here. Arizona made a good point…. Callie wasn’t on the plane. And how emotionally invested Callie gets in everything, she at times forgot that. To that end, she missed signs that Arizona was struggling. And once Arizona asked her not to run she focused in on that, making it easier for Arizona to cover what she was really feeling. Communication has never been their strength. Putting things aside and moving forward has. Now, for them to have a chance they must fix that. Start real communication so that they can rebuild what has been damaged.
I may still be in a bubble but I do believe they get back to each other. The reason there is intense anger…. because there is intense love. Why does trust being broken hurt more than ever before…. because they are the person that each other trusts the most? I know that many think that cheating will be a deal breaker for Callie. I think that that underestimates Callie’s love for Arizona. And again while cheating is terrible, don’t let it make you underestimate that Arizona loves Callie. It was a deal breaker with George…. because she realized she probably shouldn’t have married him to start. They were never on the same page with how they felt about each other. I don’t think that’s the case here…. I believe that they do love each other and deeply. But they are both hurting, damaged and lost. I also expect that they will be apart to start the season, and we are going to be wrecked many more times. I expect them both to try to move on, apart and fail miserably. I want to see Arizona truly heal. I want to see her continue to be Sofia’s Mama. I want us to finally get to know Arizona, not just Arizona with Callie. I want to see Callie be hardcore and angry. I want Callie to have a great friendship with Cristina and Bailey that we see more of. I want them to be happy as individuals and realize that they are each other’s person, to realize they can be extraordinary together (yup, MerDers, I’m borrowing that) Then I want to see them fight for each other and what they can be. I have gotten to the place where I can now embrace the pain that comes with being on this ship. I will weather the storm and heal with them.
Why I have hope….. Shonda said once that if Calzona was to have a legal wedding it would have to be special…. I’m hoping that coming through this is what she alluded to. And then there is that they left the cliffhanger and Shonda and JCap both alluded to not being sure of what comes next. The cheating was put right out there and talked openly about. The aftermath….. not yet. So, I will once again take the hiatus to breathe. I will watch previous seasons and be reminded of why I fell in love with them to begin with. Then come fall I will jump back in, I will watch, yell, cry and feel.
For those in the fandom that are struggling with this, I hear you and I empathize. I’ve seen the reaction on my twitter timeline. Just remember that ultimately the reason that we are so invested is that we have been given a gift…. a great story that has great women bringing them to us. It’s been fun doing these reviews, thanks to all of you that have read, reviewed or chatted me up on twitter. I look forward to taking the journey of season 10 with all of you. Until then I want our ship to stay CalzonaStrong but more importantly…. stay GreysStrong!
Please comment below and let me know how you are feeling.